Saturday, April 9, 2011

Standing on the Edge...

My time in the states is getting shorter and shorter. It's almost time for me to head to Spain...and I'm so excited! Right now I'm just waiting for my Spanish visa.


I would like to officially say that waiting sucks!

While I wait, I'm preparing in other ways. I've been going through all of my stuff. It's amazing the amount of boxes one can accumulate. I'm throwing things out, and trying to downsize. I'm also trying to figure out what I NEED to take with me. Notice the emphasis on need. There's lots of stuff I'd LIKE to take, but if I take it all I'd be paying $1000 in overweight luggage fees alone!


I think it's finally starting to hit me that I'm actually going to do this!


I feel like this...


...like I'm on the edge of a great adventure. I'm about to jump in, trusting that God is going to lead the way. The amazing thing is that I'm not afraid.

I'm Expectant

Hoperful

Anxious

Eager


"Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track. Don't assume that you know it all." - Proverbs 3:5 (MSG)

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Three Years

Like I mentioned in my previous post...I am headed back to Ibiza! This time I've made a three year commitment to the ministry.


I can't tell you how excited I am!


I went to Ibiza for the first time in 2009, and I'd by that fall I had an idea that maybe God was calling me to go to Ibiza more long term. After spending 3 months on the island in 2010, I knew for sure that Ibiza was going to be my home for a little while.


The funny thing is that for me, the "Call" was the easy part!...now comes the fundraising, and the red tape of trying to get a visa. Now comes the "Trusting" part...


I'm learning that I have to trust that if God called me, he's going to provide everything I need!

Monday, March 14, 2011

Ibiza Update



For those of you who don't know...I'm working on heading back to Ibiza for the next three years! I'm so super excited, and in in the middle of the process to make that happen.

  • I'm working on Getting a Spanish Visa

  • I'm raising money

  • I'm trying to decide what to do with all of my stuff! (I'm tempted to just sell it!)


  • This past weekend I went to California to visit two churches that are dear to my heart. CFC and Grace Christian Center. I felt so loved and supported, and it's always good to get to talk about my passion and heart for Ibiza.

    I'll be heading to Kansas this next weekend to see by best friend Jenny (Woo Hoo!) and to raise a little more money!

    So thankful for all of the people that God has put in my life!

    Thursday, October 28, 2010

    Part 2

    Finally posting the 2nd part of THIS post….

    Thanks so much for your comments!  Lovey, you make an excellent point. I think other people can have a HUGE affect on how we view God. Here are some of the reasons I came up with:

    Why do we have these misconceptions about God?

    1. Sometimes we humanize God. We expect him to act the way we would in a situation. We need to remember that God’s ways are different then our ways. His love is revolutionary!

    Ephesians 3:18 – “And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his live is. May you experience the love of Christ through it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.”

    God’s love for us is so much bigger then we can fully comprehend!

    2.Sometimes it’s easier to believe that God is going to give us we we think we deserve. Grace can be hard to accept.

    When I lived in California, I use to drive a silver Volvo. It had over a 100,000 miles on it, and one day it started making a strange noise. I knew I needed a new car, but I also knew that I didn’t have the money to buy one. I really didn’t know what I was going to do. I asked for prayer about my car dilemma during my small group meeting one Sunday night. One of my group members told me about another lady in our church who had just purchased a new car. It seems she was looking to sell her old car at a good price. She suggested I call her to check it out. Even though I really had no money to buy a car, something told me to just call her. When I did she shocked me when she told me that her plan was to give away her old car to the first person who called to ask about it. That person was me, and before I knew it I was driving around in my new FREE car!

    Ephesians 2:8-9 - “God saved you by his grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; it is a gift from God. Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast boast about it.”

    Me getting that car reminds me of God’s grace. I didn’t do anything to deserve it. That car was a gift that I didn’t earn. Grace can be hard to accept, because there’s a part of us that feels like we need to do something to deserve it. Which brings me to my next point…

    3. It’s hard to wrap our heads around the fact that we don’t need to work for God’s affection. It’s a gift that we just need to accept. That means we can’t boast about it, but that also means that we don’t have to worry about working to try and earn it.

    I think if we realized the depth of the LOVE God has for us, it would change the way we live our lives…

    Psalm 139:17-18 - “How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand!”

    Friday, October 15, 2010

    Accountability

    vulnerable
    open
    naked
    no desire or place to hide
    i bring myself willingly here with you
    each of us with trust in our hands
    ready to offer
    when our shields come down
    and our masks come off
    all of our weaknesses are laid out
    i let you see into me
    and I see into you
    open
    in this time let us be
    honest
    bare
    gentle with one another
    there is no space for condemnation or
    judgement
    only LOVE
    acceptance
    wisdom
    shared freely amongst us
    we are sitting in the presence together
    being still
    being healed
    in this place let us
    speak
    listen
    HEAR
    reflect
    and never be the same again.

    Wednesday, October 13, 2010

    ...naked personalities

    Living as part of a community here in Ibiza has really changed my life. If I'm being honest I'll admit that I'm not the most open or vulnerable person. In fact I think I do more hiding than most people do. Why is it so hard to just be open? There are the obvious reason...like when you close yourself off after being hurt a few too many times. I think it's tough because even the world vulnerable has negative connotations to it. Here's how Webster's defines vulnerable:

    Capable of being physically or emotionally wounded. Open to attack or damage.

    I mean COME ON! Who wants that in their life?!

    What I've learned this summer is that being vulnerable doesn't always mean getting hurt. Sometimes opening yourself up, and letting someone else look in can bring an incredible amount of healing to your life. I read this amazing C.S. Lewis quote today -

    "Eros will have naked bodies; Friendship naked personalities."

    In real friendship we can just be ourselves. We don't have to hide. I'm finding that when I can be naked, honest and vulnerable with another person, cool things happen.