As I sit here in the living room of my apartment in Ibiza, I realize that part of me still can't believe I'm actually here. I've been waiting and praying for this for over 7 years.
While waiting is tough, I have to admit that I learned a lot during those years. One thing waiting did was force me to step up my trust game. I felt God calling me to go to Ibiza, so I had to trust that he was going to help me get there. I'd love to tell you that my heart was full of trust 24 hours a day, but...
I'll admit I had my moments of doubt. It was in those moments that I clung to God. One of the songs I listened to a lot was "God I Look to You" by Bethel Worship
God I look to you I won't be overwhelmed
Give me vision to see things like you do
God I look to you, you're where my help comes from
Give me wisdom, you know just what to do.
Proverbs 3:5 says this:
"Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own." (MSG)
The song and the verse reminded me to not let the visa process overwhelm me, but to keep my eyes focused on God. It wasn't my job to try and figure it all out alone. It was my job to trust and to let God guide me each step of the way.
And you know what? Even though my waiting is over, the trusting doesn't stop! My hope is that I'm learning, and growing in that area. Every day I pick up that trust, and I remind myself that God is good. His love is unfailing, and I can trust in that!